COFESSIONS OF A FOOD ADDICT

Hello, my name is Suzanne and I am a food addict... 

 

Yes, it's true and is something that I have recently come to grips with.  This journey I am on is mostly a journey of recovery. Me, trying to retrain this brain of mine. Like any other addict (booze or drugs) I use food to feel better. It took having to sit through a DUI education class recently to figure this out. I had to take this class because of a DUI that I got back in 1996.  At first I was very irritated that I had to sit through these classes.  After all I don't (and I really don't) have a problem with substance abuse. However, as I sat and listened to these informational videos and stories I did come to the realization that I am very addicted to the high I get from comfort food.

 

Just yesterday I went food shopping and then took my son to get a pizza (as I promised him over a week ago) and as I was sitting there my mouth started watering. Then I started thinking," how many miles could I walk so that I could justify having some pizza"  even though I had a car full of healthy groceries. " Be strong," I'm thinking as I am sitting there looking at the donut shop 3 doors down and thinking, "oh my," they have those apple fritters.  What if I get some for the kids for breakfast so that I don't have to cook before I go on my hike.  One or two bits wont hurt, right?  But one or two bites turn into half of the fritter, then next thing you know I have eaten practically this whole thing and my kid is the one who only got a couple of bites. The only difference this time I was aware of how irrational my thinking was. Now I am not going to lie here...I did succumb but not to the pizza and I didn't buy the fritters. I came home and had a couple of handfuls of plantain chips.  See my trigger food is chips. Salty, greasy, and crunchy chips! My personal favorite is the tortilla chip or buttery & salty popcorn. While baked plantain chips aren't the worst  thing I could have had...it is a gateway drug for me. I can usually eat the whole bag over the course of the day.  It is why I am on no a chip thing for 90 days.  So today is day one, again.  I will not give up!!

 

 

UDATE on the workout schedule.  I am struggling here, too.  I only did about 50% of my schedule from last week.  I am probably going to have to revise that too. However, I will do better this week.  I am lucky to have such great friends cheering me on!  I will update my workout schedule publicly in about a week once I figure out what will really work with my schedule.